Can I just say, that there has been such an amazing response from people after I shared this blog with everyone?! THANK YOU! I was, honestly, terrified.
I’ve been feeling super awesome great the last few days. I am guessing it’s due to 9 hours of sleep a night, 150mg of Bupropion, the fact that I get to go on a 5 day writing retreat in the mountains, and that wedding planning has been delegated.
Something I’ve noticed, a difference in a 0 day that’s normal and a 0 day that is FREAKING GREAT is that I sing. A lot. Especially in the car.
My favorite part of this process is that I’m learning to really lean into the happiness in these moments, driving to work or whatever and just bopping along. I’m realizing how happy I am, and just enjoying it. Because, I know, it’s not always like this. So, I sing along. And dance along… sometimes.
I hope that I can have those same realizations during an episode. Knowing, that they only last for awhile, not forever. I’m getting better at it, but I’m not perfect.
Ah! I wanted to write something really great today because everyone has been so awesome and I have a lot of thoughts on people opening up to me about their own issues BUT I JUST CAN’T DO THAT TODAY! Because I’m feeling good, feeling great. Don’t have time to wax poetic about depression. About to go to a BBQ. So, just know that it’s coming and we can have some good, real, discussions. Soon.
Also, I leave Monday for a five day mountain retreat with no internet… so there’s that…