There seems to be a reoccurring theme in my life… being too hard on myself.
I’m talking, specifically, in this instance, about not going to the gym. And then being annoyed at myself for not going.
Last week, at the retreat, I got up early on Tuesday and Thursday and did a circuit workout with no weights, push-ups, lunges, squats, etc. I also went for a nice long hike on Wed. But 3/5 days isn’t a strenuous schedule for me.
When I got home I crashed hard, and didn’t get to the gym until Monday. It was PACKED so I went on the elliptical (an easy day for me). Tuesday I had wedding stuff all day, and the rest of the week I’ve been working more hours because my manager is on vacation. Basically, my schedule is all discombobulated and this morning I was trying real hard to talk myself into working out, but I have a doctor’s appointment at 9 and work at 10 and now I’m annoyed at myself for not doing any heavy lifting this week.
Seems silly when I type it out. Normally I do 2/3 days of heavy weightlifting and 2/3 days of cardio. I still want to do that, just, this and last week have thrown me off as I try to fit everything in. Wedding planning takes up so much time, even though we have almost everything done! I bet after it’s over I’m just going to lay on the couch like “what the heck do we do now?”
Why am I so mean to myself about not going to the gym? Because I know that it’s something that makes me feel really good, because it’s harder to get back for every time you skip, because it means I’m prioritizing other things before exercise… because I’m SLEEPING God forbid. LOL. I’m sure if people knew that I bitched at myself after sleeping for 9 hours they’d be like WAKE UP DUMMY. That might be part of the problem.
Did I write this whole post just to make myself feel better? Probably. Am I actually going to go to the gym tomorrow morning? I hope so! We’ll see.