Bam. Week in a row posting. Look at me go.
My routine is going well so far, I only missed one day of lifting (Saturday) and Sunday was my rest day. Today we had to take my car in so I was like “do I even have time to walk?” YES! Yes I do! And I did.
A lot of this is me battling the need to be “perfect.” If I can’t do everything the way I want it done, and perfectly, I just don’t do it. But that is not a great way to get through life. So I’m working on it… it’s not easy LOL.
I’m working on my audition piece for TOMORROW NIGHT AND I’M SO FUCKING NERVOUS I keep trying to talk myself out of it and make excuses about why I can’t be in a play and stuff and it’s all because I’m am so so nervous and terrified and I don’t know why it’s not like I’VE BEEN DOING THIS MY WHOLE DANG LIFE and I’m used to a little nerves but for some reason I’m just scared shitless right now and I’m full of adrenaline and I need to go for another walk because I can’t sit still because the audition is tomorrow but I made myself a checklist of the things I need to do to prepare so I’m going to focus on that and keep practicing my monologue and FORCE.MYSELF.TO.GO.
And about to head into work for the first time since everything exploded so that is nerve-wracking too. Wish me luck 😐